The main thing I want you to take from this is not every gym journey nor fitness path is the same. I see these girls and guys on instagram and Pinterest with these washboard abs and big booties, and I feel like Emma Stone when she says that Ryan Gosling looks photoshopped. I identify more with fitness memes about "fitness whole pizza in my mouth" as opposed to ones about "abs are made in the kitchen". What kitchen? Where? And how much would a plate of abs cost?
I played softball, basketball, golf, was in cheer, and was in a dance academy, throughout my younger years. That slowly gave way to just dance, and then stopped completely when I couldn't dance anymore due to my car accident. I did go ride the bike at the gym and read. Yeah, I was that nerd. Sometimes I would swim, or walk the treadmill but I never wanted to go.
I have never liked the gym. The whole idea is so odd to me. I've never understood how people get addicted to it and just can't wait to go. I stayed within the same 10 pounds during high school and college, never gaining the freshman 15. I never really thought much about it.
Now after becoming somewhat independent and moving in with my boyfriend, I decided that I could eat whatever I wanted. Even candy before breakfast, or for breakfast! And darn it if I don't weigh more now than I have ever weighed in my life. After literally popping the button off my pants, and boyfriend winning a trip to Hawaii, I needed to do something about it.
We both have started this 12 week program and are about half way through. I feel like 6 weeks is a good enough time to form a habit, but alas I am not addicted to the gym. It isn't my happy place. *shout out to the mall though who will forever be my number one* I like going because boyfriend and I are on the same team. I do feel guilty when we don't go. I love leg day, maybe from all the dancing. It is also pretty neat to feel myself getting stronger. I really love that. I've never really had to push myself physically before and I can understand how that can be intoxicating. I have a hard time getting some of the forms down. I feel really self-conscious, but you soon realize that no one cares what you're doing, they're too busy checking themselves out in the mirror. I do also like that I can shamelessly admire myself the entire time because when in Rome... I also think people underestimate "meat heads". They have to be good at math, I find myself trying to do math while adding up the amount of weight I'm using and surreptitiously making sure no one sees me use my fingers. Also the machines at the gym are really hard to figure out. Like tough. I hate them. They make me feel like a fool. Also, don't let your mind wander while trying to count. I am mathematically challenged and cannot multitask with numbers. One time I thought I did 175 reps, but I lost count and I think I only did like 17. I don't really know.
This program includes cardio and I kind of love/hate that part. Boyfriend feels like reading on the bike doesn't count, but I can't stand to see that I feel like I have been on the bike for like 8 hours, but the clock is busted and says 30 seconds. I will have a meltdown if I watch the clock. As seen from my teaser earlier today on insta, we take our puppies and go for walks along the river. The scenery is divine, and the company is perfect!
Oh!! and of course all of this is backed up by a diet. I cut all sugars, soda, 97% of carbs, and processed food out of my diet. No fried foods, only 100% whole wheat if I absolutely must. I'm also trying to eat more protein. I don't really like it though, so the struggle. And protein shakes taste like yucky and they make me vom.